I'm Free

Yet one more image my buddy sent to me after a long conversation about my guilt over losing Aubreea. Even though I knew for a true certainty that I had helped Aubie by letting her cross the Rainbow Bridge, those first few months were pure hell for me because I still questioned if I had truly done all I could have for her. It is an amazing thing how sometimes the heart and the mind play tricks on you, often times in conflicting ways. My friend emailed me and said "I hope this will help you in some way".

Reading it, it tore the life and heart out of me...recalling seeing the last moments of earthly life leave my Aubie's fragile body. Seeing her final breath cease to exist any longer. But also seeing her, thanks to God's compassion and blessing, being reunited with her parents and siblings that had gone before her...it was unlike anything I had ever experienced before. 

I choose to try and remember her in her days of health and vigor....how perfectly she fit in my hand the first time I ever held her (she was the smallest of her litter). How she used to steal food off of my plate when she thought I wasn't looking. How she once took down a possum almost twice her size----and did it with ease. How she would cuddle in my arms and fall asleep, emitting her perfectly cute, sweet snoring. How she gave me 15 years of joy, love, laughter and happiness.

I urge each and every one of you that has a pet in your life to love them and let them know they are special in your life and heart. You never know when that final breath will come....so let your furbaby know that they were indeed loved and cherished.